And you know too.

Dictionary.com's word of the day:

aporia
1.difficulty determining the truth of an idea due to
equally valid arguments for and against it.
2. In rhetoric, the expression of a simulated or real
doubt, as about where to begin or what to do or say.

WHAT? Does dictionary.com know my life?

I'm constantly finding little clues in random ways. Maybe not clues, things that specifically RELATE. Someone will have written down a certain name in the bathroom stall. Or we learn about it in the bible. Or I will look at the clock and it will be 1:06, 6 being my lucky number. Sometimes universal truths come up in casual conversation or on dictionary.com or in a weird animal planet documentary. Pay attention, cause there's things talking to you all over the place. It adds more pieces to the puzzle, really.

Old habits die hard.

(From a year or so ago)

Barrels of guns

The heavy words dripped from your mouth
and landed in a pool at my feet.
If only I could dive into that pool
if only you'd accompany me.

We stuck flowers down the barrels of guns
with their eyes on you and me.
If only we could dive down those barrels
if only you'd accompany me.

Ba da bum bum, barrels of guns
with their fixed eyes on you and me.
Let's walk on our tightrope up to the sun,
please will you accompany me?

Talking shit about a pretty sunset.

I'm much too tired to put my thoughts in to any sort of sequential format. So bear with me as I speak in fragments.

What an overcast 4th of July.

Do you ever hate the caps lock button?

I wish I was a 60's folk singer in the Newport folk music festival: "You ask someone why they like strawberry shortcake, they just do."

The nice thing with wishing for things that probably won't come true is that the wishing is unlimited.

I wish I was there when they set the couch on fire.

Please please look up the Cold War Kids "Hang me up to Dry" music video (You HAVE to watch the video) and then, if you feel like crying, Hospital Beds by the same.

Is anything fun ever going to happen?

Parades are so boring and slightly awful in such a pretty little way. Or maybe it's the theory of parades that I love, which parades are never really like.

"I've changed my mind so much I can't even trust it

My mind changed me so much I can't even trust myself."

-Modest Mouse (title the same as this post)

I want to do and get what I want.

The fireworks oustide sound a little bit like bombs.

Blue you sit so pretty.

SHOUT OUT:

Miss Addy Baird- You are what I aspire to be when I grow up. Seriously, how did you get so incredibly COOL? I wish I could be more like Addy Baird and I wish I had your hair/cleverness too.

BayBay Christensen- The nicest kid in town. Not to mention super smart, sexy, and a hardcore DI addict like me. We write poems and stuff.

Suds- Well, you always have a bag of fireworks and a lighter. So you're pretty much the best ever. You've got some sweeeet style and skills= parkour.

DSwens- ...takes bad a to a whole other level. We may or may not be in love. Also, you're fast and can I have your cool clothes?

All y'all are the best I could ask for. You will do great things.

I didn't know what to say to myself, and I thought:

No one's going to love me if I keep crying like this.

Which, naturally, made me cry.

Remember this?
"And Lot's wife, of course, was told not to look back....But she did look back, and I love her for that, because it was so human. So she was turned to a pillar of salt. So it goes."

Because it was so human.

Outer space is the void that exists beyond any celestial body, including the Earth. It is not completely empty, but consists of a hard vacuum containing a low density of particles: predominantly a plasma of hydrogen and helium, as well as electromagnetic radiation, magnetic fields, and neutrinos. Theoretically, it also contains dark matter and dark energy.

"And what else is out there, beyond the solar system? Well, nothing and a great deal, depending on how you look at it."
-Bill Bryson

Have you ever tried to wrap your head around outer space? I like Mr Bryson's definition better, nothing and a great deal.

To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die.

Lucy took the long way home.

You can find out nearly everything that needs be known about a new person by a number of first impression questions. You're introduced to someone and you subtly lay on them this series of questions which will, give or take, allow you to make a fairly good judgment moving forward.

Question #1 What's your favorite color?

Though a seemingly typical inquiry, favorite colors can reveal much about a person . Some may say "blue" or "green" or "yellow", while others elaborate "sky blue", "sea foam green", "mustard yellow." People can also be easily divided into the green/yellow or pink/red/purple families, with blue somewhere in the middle. The blue people are always extra tricky.

Question #2 What's your favorite book?

The real question hiding behind question #2 is "do you read?" There are readers and non-readers and a gap the size of Alaska in between.

Question #3 If you had a tattoo, what would it be and where?

Tattoo's are of relative importance and we can indirectly find through said question what the person finds important (or what they would like to display as important). Also, are they creative or do they want a butterfly on their right ankle?

Question #4 What is your middle name?

There is a slight difference between middle namers and those without. It's good to know a persons full name.

Question #5 What's your favorite jungle animal?

This question is all about how the subject answers, quickly or hesitantly. The coolest people always have an awesome jungle animal on the tip of their tongue.

People are generally easy to figure out, except for the ones really worth knowing. If you're lucky, after a million questions, you can ask "do you love me?"

Well, do you?